a normal day in my mind.

what if i look like a hot mess today and dont impress him? am i good enough for him? i need to save more money for important things... do i really have to work today? what if i do something today to disappoint my momma? i am getting sick of being at lone peak. i wish i could just graduate right now. what do i need to do to graduate? i wonder what adventure im going to go though today! i just wish i wasnt so caught up in something stupid... i dont regret anything. please lord just help me though this day. make it a good one. amen.

im afraid of...

im afraid.... of well yeah spiders and snakes but other things like being alone, being a disappointment, hurting someone.. and then the other things that you wouldnt know unless you were in my mind. like i am afraid of going on a roller coaster. i love roller coasters but that feeling when you get on and think to yourself... one thing breaks and im dead. im afraid of starring at someone too long and them thinking im a petafile. of someone being in my shower. #1 rule... check behind the curtin before you get in. of losing someone close to me. of akward hugs and of thugs. of someone being in my back seat at night... of crashing on skis.. manikins... yeah i know im weird.

thinking... part 2

ok class... today we are talking about square roots! take out a clean sheet of paper for notes. "eff i hate notes.. we are never going to use this crap anywhere else! but i hate to pass this test.... SQUARE ROOTS. what should i do after work today? during lunch? this weekend? im hungry... talk to friends... ok back to the math problem... i dont know a damn word he's saying. ...last night was so fun hanging out with him. he makes me so happy!! i think ill ask to go to the bathroom and go see him. i cant stand being away from him. i hope i look ok today..." and we are going to have homework on this tonight. problems #2-30 and #40. "im screwed..." 

Thinking...

I'm thinking about you like lips think about kisses... Like like arms think about hugs and stomachs think about butteflies. I'm thinkin about you like ski's think about snow. Like bikinis think about sun and water. Like hearts think about beating. I'm thinkin about you baby. Like hands think about holding... Like girls think about shoes. I'm thinking about you like rain boots think about puddles... Like rappers think about hoes. Like cops think about robbers. I'm thinkin about you like boats think about floating and stoners think about grass and bugs think about... Yeah grass!! Come on baby don't you know I'm thinkin about you??

Love...

Is love just a feeling? Just a word?  To me love means deep affection for someone that in your heart makes butterflies. Butterflies... yeah butterflies! That feeling in your stomach that you only get with certain people. I love that feeling. By those little moments everyday and the laughs and smiles. I cant wait to see what life brings and see what gives me butterflies. As Bob Marley always says....

"ONE LOVE... ONE HEART... LETS GET TOGETHER AND FEEL ALRIGHT..."

Why?

Why do we feel the things we do? Why do we want those feelings all day everyday? Answer me that!

Being Alive...

I love being alive. The things we get to learn about everyday and the experiences we go through! I love the feeling of bliss and excitement! I love the feeling of being loved everyday. What I would give to help others feel loved and feel bliss!

intro to this party...

i hate school but the thought of growing up into a big kid makes me want to barf...